???

Bah... Cold, too cold to sleep, eat, drink or fuck
my blankets are cold I would do homework but 
my hands shivering cant hold a pencil let alone give a flying duck
Vampires dont like chocolate?
Didn't know that.. I didn't see a truck today, no red truck

I try, thats me

looking at these bandages
its making me thing about life again
watching her make choices about love again
she wants someone like me who understands her frame

someone like me who knows her mind
someone like me who knows her well
someone who understands her needs to no end
someone whose there when she needs a friend

little does she know that she has it now
someone who knows to treat her how
she wants to be treated with care she needs only when
shes feeling overwhelmed and needs advice now and then

she already has it but is blind to
this feeling from a friend that isn't new
she wants someone like me who knows her through
who gives her what she wants, and never fails to

inform her with the knowledge of my opinion
that she should try to make with precision
she has what she wants but for some reason true...
she doesn't want me she wants you

not mine but its called "Guarantees" good shit

These warehouse wages
Kill the ends introduction
man I should have schooled it up
When I was younger should have stuck to plan
Always had the dreams of being more self assertive
And my kids a teenager now he needs the health insurance
So break my body
Break break my soul down
Just another zombie walking blindly through your ghost town
Pull up to the bar to politic and tap the power
Aint nobody really all that jolly at your happy hour
But I don’t want to go home yet
So I’m gonna talk to my cigarette
And that television set
It doesn’t matter what brand or station
Anything to take away from the current situation

No overtime pay no holiday
Months behind on everything but the lottery
Went around the corner guaranteeing that my car died
Wifey having trouble trying to juggle both the part times
My cup aint close to filled up
We trying to build up so we can have enough
And when I finally get the color
There won’t be nothing left to paint on
A friend of mine tried to kill himself to the same song

My better half is mad at making magic out of canned goods
My tax bracket status gotta questioning my man hood
My shorty got caught smoking weed at a concert
And if I smack em everybody treats me like a monster
My neighbors aint doing much better
And we making competition instead of sticking together
Cant save no nest egg in fact this nest is rented
In fact that rent is late, wait
The money aint here the raise aint coming
Just me and my son and that crazy woman
And those bartenders this whole fucking country
Got everybody swallowing that lunch meat
Maybe we can speed up the process
Kill me in my thirties in the name of progress
Put me in the dirt and then change the topic
Some time it seems like the only way to stop it
Contemplate my departure date
Doesn’t take a lot to get a lot of us to talk this way
Take a shot at me that's all i'm obligated for
Apparently my only guarantee is a walk away

The only guarantee in life is a life worth dying for
The only guarantee in life is a life worth dying for
Cause death don’t wait for no one
Sitting on your front door
The only guarantee in life is a life worth dying for
Cause death don’t wait for no one
Sitting on your front door

No afterlife

Damn this shits empty..
is this really all there'l be?
wide, dark, cold, does god really love ugly?
bills past due, the collectors threaten to sue

you endure the obscure
to find yourself in nothingness
life's over there's just darkness
no afterlife, but i live on through memory
with people ive touched, mentally

|\|um

I just want to sleep, close my eyes and not deal
when you sleep you don't feel, you don't lose, you just conceal
just hit the snooze, there is no court room appeal
when you're drifting away, no matter what situation, you're free

From the thoughts of envy, greed, desire, you're just congealed
to one form of neutrality, vast like the ocean is the landscape revealed
no good or bad there is just the here, no trouble to come
I wake up from this sleep, and i want it again, i just want to be numb

Id really rather just be numb...

Disfunctional

To everyone in life who cant seem to get what they want
Everyone who's been always shat on, with nothing to flaunt
For everyone who doesn't even know what they truly want
To everyone who knows what they want but its always out of reach
For those who can taste what they want but its never close enough to touch

To all the people taken advantage of and used by people who we love
Everyone who doesn't really have what for to thank the stars up above
For those simple, who only want one thing to make their lives complete
To all those who will never get these things and will always feel imperfect
For those alone though not on purpose, even though it may be for the best

To all of you in life too strange to find a true companion
Everyone who's strange enough that, they probably shouldn't have another's compassion
For the people all cloud headed because of someone else's influence
To those who mistake this influence for something good and crave it, its petulance
For those using this life as a racetrack... trying to get to the end first only to find that's it...

To all you who dont understand that its the journey that counts and not the destination
Everyone who got picked on as a kid and grew up considered awkward by peers
For all those people, shivering at the knees stood firmly in front of life's fears
To those, like me, which some of these things don't apply to, but now you know
For those with similar experience, who will have to deal with these things as we grow

Sleep well Jezebel (inspired by the random shit that comes out my mouth)

As the strands of sleep take over, pay no heed
to the trial and tribulations of the day, indeed,
you know, that this past day has caused you to grow
leave no sheep uncounted due to misfortunes had
just drift away into subconsciousness, nothing is that bad

so sleep well jezebel dont let your sleep be disturbed
you can get through anything you want even through all you've heard

you aren't frisked, forsaken or betrothed
there is another day waiting, even in prison for those who are bold
so when you feel yourself catching the blues
just try to put yourself in someone else's shoes
no matter how bad you got it someone has it much worse
just be thankful for those few dollars in your purse

so sleep well jezebel, don't let your mind keep you awake
when the morning comes its a new day but with new challenges at stake

Sleep well jezebel with your head against the pillow
with promises of dreams to come, and maybe even climb a big willow
because tomorrow is just as hard as today and even more of a thriller
even more work to do and life demands even more will in her

so sleep well jezebel, sleep in the good and try to sleep out the bad
because with new challenges come new disappointments to be had